Thanks K-I-Y! Y’know, some day I’ll figure out if you’re a Lovecraft or a Chambers fan.
- 60 Do you talk to yourself?
I sort of do, but I don’t conceptualize it as talking to myself - I talk to my cat, or to inanimate objects, or to a TV or computer screen. And by that I mean more than the simple things I’d imagine most people do; I hold conversations with my cat about what to make for dinner or whether I’m forgetting anything on my shopping list. I start explaining my troubleshooting process to my computer when I’ve been hammering away at problems on a machine and nothing seems to work… That kind of thing. To be completely honest, my inner hermit romanticizes becoming so detached from society that I forget human speech, and as a result every time I speak out in an empty room I reflexively chastise myself.
- 73 Do you correct people when they make mistakes?
I usually only do it when it’s in an official capacity - if someone at work makes false assumptions about how a system I oversee functions, I ensure they’re corrected before it causes any problems for anyone.
Also, if a friend is new to something I can speak with authority on, I’ll talk to them about what they’re doing and try my best to facilitate further discovery on their part. My hope is they resolve their own mistakes without my help.
I thought about this for a while, because I’m kind of at a transition point (29 in June). I guess no, not particularly. Socially I feel like I still fit in more with people who are younger than me, particularly because all the friends I have who are my age are married and/or have kids, while I’m still single. And I have what tend to be thought of as juvenile pastimes (anime, video games, chatting with “internet friends”)… Sometimes I feel like I’ve become one of the guys I knew in college who seemed so out of place, like they needed to just give up trying to make friends at their age.
And from a professional position, I’ve found I’m too young for a lot of things my practical experiences permit; I had my first paid IT job when I was 11, and by the age of 14 I was administering servers, building office networks, and writing database-driven web applications for businesses in my city. It actually took 4 years of raises and promotions to finally get back to making as much money in a year as I did before I had a driver’s license. But you put that stuff on a resume and no one will believe you, so I went and got an engineering degree so I’d have the piece of paper to back it all up, and all anyone cares about are the number of years I’ve been doing IT work after graduation. Even if my first job out of college I was in the top 2% of performers for a tech company of 1,500 2 years running.
So yeah… Short answer is no.
It’s difficult for me to say, if I’m honest. I spend most of my time pretty emotionally detached, partly as a side-effect, and partly as a means of defense I’ve developed over the years against things which trigger my depression. But I do feel frustration and disappointment (which together are pretty much like anger) either when people I know say racist, sexist, or otherwise prejudiced remarks, or when people I know are the target of such things. It’s one thing if it’s a slip, or a lack of understanding - even the best ally can mess up and let out a phrase they used in the past before they knew better. People who fight against bettering themselves, though, are really frustrating to me.